Attempting to Understand Things

Sometimes as beings it is hard to understand the path that we should take or the path that fate has chosen for us....

I understand that for some of us the path is long and lonely, and for others that lonely path is filled with love and compassion with any understanding that we may have...

There is love that I have had and never really lost that is confused on what part of the road they need to travel...

Carrying on the spirit and essense of our love is what is the most important, love is not always the most prominent issue in our life, but without compassion we would never feel love...I am sorry for those that fail to recognize this issue...and it really is an issue...

My life has taken many phases and many crazes and for those that know me they understand...

Drugs, Alcohol, me losing Jamie and ultimately just being a severely whacked out Chef that feels guilty for taking out any time for himself because he is buried in his "world"...

So where is the happiness?

The happiness is in where your heart is.

Sometimes my heart is in North Carolina, a lot of times it is in Tennessee, all the time it is in Virginia (with my family), it goes to West Virginia with my daughter and my passed soulmate, it is with the woman in Okinowa that polished my boots 20 years ago, it is with the woman tonight that was practically crying because she needed a job cuz her boss was a dick...

No Passion, No Love....

I guess that what I am trying to say is that no matter how barren the straits may be, you can always find a flower or a butterfly or a symbol that makes us realize there is so much more to life than this...

So if you are happy...look at Tibet and despise aggression...if you are sad...look at Philadelphia and do something to help an unfortunate child...if you are confused....put yourself in the Dalai Lama's shoes....if you hate life....then look at how fortunate you really are...

Life is good....make a difference, your problems aren't that big...